Its so pretty :O
Took me 9 days but, I did it. I turned down my dream position in a necropsy lab. As hard as it is - I know God has something greater in store for me as a leader with my fellowship. Nonetheless, this is the most unhumbling feeling. To count, this is the third opportunity I’ve given up since committing to leadership. :-/
Aaaaaaand this is why I love animals
People can be so so disappointing. Yesterday reminded me of when my freshman year floormates would do the exact damn thing. I remember sitting in the dining hall multiple times with my friends as a freshman, and how our group conversations would somehow - one way or another - transfer into talking in a negative perspective about another individual on our floor. It bugged the crap out of me. So I’d end up withdrawing from taking part in conversing at all with them.
Besides the handful of close knit friends I’ve stuck with over the past years in college, I don’t spend as much time with secular individuals anymore. But most of the time that I do, I end up really disappointed by their characters. People that live for themselves and selfish initiatives seem to often see things their way and express unfair judgements. It’s as though they have no idea what due respect is. Everyone … I repeat everyone, is going through struggles. Whether it’s very difficult or its less difficult, life never gives anyone a break. As people, God created us to be molded and sensitive in responsiveness so it makes sense that we will always endure challenges.
And thus, that is why I don’t understand why people cannot acknowledge this before they go placing their own preconceived notions on someone. Especially someone they rarely know. And in fact, later on when this individual expressed that they suffered from anxiety & depression, it was as though this was that group’s “appropriate” gateway to talk more about her behind her back.
The closer I draw to God, the harder I find it to be around secular people of this sort. It seems to be a rather common theme in our world … just existing for yourself and your own personal benefit.
God’s love is so so important in this world. It is healing and supportive. From my personal background of coming to know God on a much deeper level in college, I often struggle with vulnerability because I grew up in the secular world where it was rarely “safe” or appropriate to share your struggles with those around you. It’s groups like this, in my opinion, that condition these perceptions. I just wish I’d called the group out … definently wasn’t cool.
True love is when your pet comes to your room on its own.